Hola, chicas! Currently my fingers are flying over my Macbook’s keyboard, trying to write down and record everything that went through my mind last night as I attempted to fall asleep. My train of thought hadn’t stopped for a good number of hours before my eyelids finally drooped to a close, and I want to write it all down now so that I can figure out answers to any leftover questions I have.
As I sat in the kitchen, I sipped away at my drink: hot tea with frothed soy milk and a teaspoon of sugar. It was a little past two in the morning and I couldn’t sleep if my life depending on it. But it wasn’t the jet lag that was keeping me up. It was the thoughts that were continuously crossing my mind each and every time I closed my eyes. Even sitting here at the kitchen table, my mind wouldn’t stop racing. It was all because of what Massie had said to me earlier after we had run into each other – literally – on the stairway. But the thoughts that raced through my mind while I had been sleeping were much more jumbled:
So Claire’s here in London too, working for Vogue London on an internship as well…
Why come to me if Massie isn’t feeling like old herself? Why not just talk to Claire. Me and her were the most estranged out of everyone else in the ex-PC. Why me??
And why was it so important that she talk to me and tell me she missed me and needed my help? Couldn’t it have just waited until school started again?
Why isn’t anyone else involved in helping her other than me? Being her ex-beta means nuh-thing when she never came to me about anything and only ever vented to Bean about stuff that bothered her.
Ugh! Why can’t I just got to sleep already?!
Okay so she explained why she reached out to me, but that doesn’t explain what I’m supposed to do to help.
I mean, I missed her too, but I still don’t know how we’re supposed to get past our problems. It’s not like the PC left her. She dumped us when she decided she wanted to be different and change how everyone looked at her.
Seriously, brain. Shut Up and let me go to sleep!!
I wonder what Claire’s going to
think say when she sees me here tomorrow, too.
Gawd, I think it’s been longer that I haven’t talked to Massie though than Claire. At least Claire and I would exchange smiles and a couple “how are you’s” every couple weeks before classes ended last Spring.
Why the heck can’t I sleep??
Oh shoot, I still need to talk to Josh…whatever, I can worry about him later.
Too. Much. On. My. Plate. Right. Now.
What time is it? Oh great, it’s already two in the morning?
Fine then, brain. Don’t let me sleep. I’ll just get up and go get a drink instead. I hate you.
The Gossip Gazette:
♥ Sorry for such a short and pretty uneventful post! I’ve been extremely busy trying to pack to go back to school since I leave to go back next week! But I wanted to get something up.
♥ Just a reminder: I heart you all!