One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

“I don’t believe you,” Massie sneered at Alicia, staring straight at her with a look that could pierce the girl’s soul like a sword or knife.

Anyone who was currently sitting in the apartment-style dorm could tell you that it felt like a court room at the moment.  The girl on trial was Alicia, the judge was Massie, and the witness was her boyfriend Derrick – though some of you may remember him by the name of Derrington.  The two of them were sitting side-by-side on the cozy, living room couch with the girls’ two other best friends, Jacqueline and Melrose.  Derrick’s friend Zachary, who Alicia had a brief fling with this semester, was leaning up against the windowsill on the other side of the room and clearly felt uncomfortable.  Then there was Alicia, who was sitting in the living room chair directly across from her persecutors and so-called “best friends.”

“But Massie, I’m telling you the truth.  Why would I lie about this?” Alicia defended herself.

“Because you’re jealous.  You want what I’ve worked my ass off to get and to keep and you’re jealous that you don’t have a relationship like the one I have with him.  You want him to yourself,” Massie continued to accuse.  Only Alicia knew that was she was saying was completely and utterly false; she wasn’t jealous and she most certainly did not want him for herself.

“You just don’t want to believe that your own boyfriend would try to feel me up and hit on me,” she attacked back in self-defense.

“Leesh, we don’t believe you because there’s no proof.  And Derrick already told us that nothing happened…which, to be quite honest, makes sense.  He loves her, he wouldn’t do something like that to her…” Melrose stepped in.

Alicia boggled her mind for anything else she could say to make her friends believe what she was saying, but it was no use.  Even Zachary, who she knew Derrick himself had told about it, was keeping his mouth shut and not even glancing her way, but was instead staring at the floor.

“Massie, come on, we’re best friends…you know I wouldn’t purposefully lie about something that would hurt you or put our friendship on the line…” she stuttered, feeling her throat tightening with each word she said.

“I don’t know anything when it comes to you anymore, Leesh.  You’ve been changing ever since you got back to campus from summer break, and now I don’t even recognize who you are anymore.  But I do know what tricks and games you used to play throughout middle school and high school, and this seems like one of those.”

A few seconds later, the brunette alpha stood up and took a few steps towards her beta. “I want nothing to do with you anymore.  I don’t want to see you, I don’t want to speak to you, and I certainly don’t want live with you.  And you know more than anyone else here that I can and will make your life a living hell if you stick around.”

Alicia cringed and could feel a piece of her heart breaking inside, but she couldn’t let it show.  Rather, she stood up and turned to leave the apartment.  She took one last look at the people who she thought were supposed to be her friends and who she thought would have believed her, but quickly tore her stare away and left before they could see any tears shed from her eyes.

As quickly as she could in her Ralph Lauren wedges, Alicia made her way to the parking lot and hopped into the driver’s seat of her BMW.  She pulled out of the spot and sped off to the place where she knew she’d feel better and could think straight: the mall.

As she made her way through the mall, stopping at her favourite stores along the way, she kept sorting through the thoughts that were continuously running through her mind and wouldn’t leave her alone.

Why wouldn’t they believe me?
I thought they were my friends…
What am I going to do?
Where am I going to go?  I can’t stay at FIT anymore…
Wait, so where will I live then?

The questions that bothered her the most were the third and last: what would she do and where would she live.  Her first instinct and thought was to go home, but she had told her parents when she enrolled at FIT that she would prove to them that she could live on her own and take care of herself without having to rely much on them.  She could go for a quick visit, but that wouldn’t solve her problems.

She could stay at the school and just move into a different dorm with other students, but she knew that Massie could spread a rumor like wildfire and ruin Alicia’s reputation and chance at getting her social life back.  She had money left in her trust fund, but not a whole lot.  But the little she had left would have to work, because the only option she could think of was to withdraw from the school and rent an apartment somewhere in the city.  She didn’t know where and she didn’t know where to even begin looking for apartments, so she did the one thing that going to school taught her best: opened the safari app on her phone and typed “apartments for rent in NYC” into Google.

There was no doubt in her mind that she was nervous, anxious, and scared about what could and would happen next, but she knew that somehow or another she could figure things out.

Hola Mis Amores,

I’m back! I don’t know how active I’ll be or how long I’ll be back, as I will still continue to be busy with school, work, and other time-consuming activities throughout the year.  But I’m happy to be back again. I missed writing, I missed Alicia, and I missed having a place where I could be as creative as I want to be.

Wondering what’s in store for Alicia?  The drama in this post was unbearable, I know.  But what’s the fun in spilling the whole story right now?  My lips are sealed until the next post.

I Heart You, Alicia ♥
2016 · Uncategorized

Whispers in My Mind

Go back to it.

You can’t let it go.

Don’t give up something you love to do.

You know you miss it.

You can make time for it. Summer’s almost here, make it a hobby again.

Don’t deny that you miss it.

The preceding lines are just a few of the thoughts which ran through my mind the past week.  I haven’t a clue what to do with this blog.  I don’t really have too many ideas left for this character.  However, I know I am not yet ready to give her up, to give my very first blog up.  I’ll find something to write about.

I might even change back to another theme where I can have headers and patterned backgrounds.

Expect something soon!

– A.R

Two thousand and fifteen


Hey guys,

I’m so sorry to say but I’m needing to take a hiatus, yet again.  It’s only the first week of second semester classes and I’m trying to figure out my new schedule and figure out how things are going to work for me. Cheerleading has gone off the rails, as the captains have no idea what they’re doing (if you ask me, they shouldn’t be captains at all anymore after all the mess-ups they’ve had this year). For example, we usually have practice on Fridays and Sundays and we’re supposed to cheer at the basketball games on Saturdays…well I haven’t heard a single thing about us having a Friday practice yet (and considering that today is Thursday, this is bad), we no longer get the gym on Sundays (which I don’t think the captains even know yet) because intramural basketball is going to be in the gym, and I’m not even sure if we’re going to cheer at any of the last 5 or 6 basketball games left in the season because of the fact that the captains can’t figure anything out.  If you can’t already tell, I’m irritated and angry about it.

Plus, I have a new class schedule — but that’s also getting screwed up at the moment because I’m having to drop one of my classes and having to try to figure out another class to add to my schedule.  I honestly am freaking out at the moment about it and it’s stressing me out.

Oh and don’t get me started about all the research projects, presentations, proposals, and papers I already know about for both of my Psychology classes and for my Criminal Justice class.  Hello all-nighters.

So yes, I’m needing to take a hiatus.  No, I can’t find much time in my schedule to write since I didn’t already have drafts written out before moving back to school. School is my first priority and I hope you guys understand that.

Love you. Please be patient with me.


I Heart This! · Two thousand and fifteen

‘I Heart This’ para Noviembre

Saturday, November 28
The Block Estate
The Cabana

♥ Things I Luh-ved in November:

Movie Nights with the PC

My New Pointe Shoes

Thanksgiving with the PC and Their Families

Black Friday Shopping

Starbucks Peppermint Mocha

xoxo, Leesh

P.S: Hope all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving if you celebrate it! Here’s a cute little picture of me attempting to help before my mother yelled at me to go get ready for the PC and their families to arrive.

Two thousand and fifteen · Uncategorized

The Changing of Leaves and Life

This is Alicia Rivera, reporting to you live from Octavian Country Day High… Nina school

Stepping one Jimmy Choo in front of the other, I made my way through the front doors of Octavian Country Day High School, a grande pumpkin spice latte in one hand and a venti iced coffee in the other; the latter was for the alpha on account of the text I’d received from her just before I left my house about how she barely got any sleep at all the night before.  She didn’t really explain why, but I didn’t want to push her.  She needed the coffee and caffeine first.

Just as the warning bell chimed, Massie met me at our lockers – which is exactly where and when we said we’d meet.  Right on time.

“Surprise!  Thought you’d want this…” I cheered as I held the venti-sized plastic cup out for her to take.

“Ehmagawd, Leesh you’re ah-mazing. Thank you!” she said, grabbing the cup and almost immediately took a long gulp of it right after.  “I needed that.”

“So what’s going on? Well…” I paused, “if you don’t mind me asking.  You said you had trouble sleeping last night?  That only happens when something major stresses you out or when we have our Friday Night Sleepovers.  I know there wasn’t a sleepover last night, so what’s got you stressed out?  You can talk to me, I promise.”

Ring Ring.

The second warning bell signaled that we had exactly two minutes to get to our first classes.

Massie looked down the hall and hesitated, but she finally spoke after the hustle and bustle of the halls became louder and louder.

“Manicures after school?  I’ll explain everything then!”  she yelled as she turned to get to her class. I sighed but was just glad that she was going to tell me – even if it were later in the day.

Guess I wouldn’t be focusing on school work during classes – I couldn’t wait to find out what was going on.

Hola Mis Amores,

~ I hope all of you j’adore my new blog set-up!  All of the changes are explained below:

New theme, new makeover: This Spun theme is just 10x easier to maintain while I’m busy with college.  No header required.  No background required either.  Plus, in my opinion, this theme makes the entire blog look a little bit more simple and elegant.

New post beginning.  Instead of continuing the “Currently I’m…” little paragraph at the beginning, which another blogger or two had also caught onto doing, I’ll be starting my posts off with the reporter-esque intro.  It brings Alicia’s hobby and personality into the posts a bit more.

New notes section and sign off after the post.  I got bored with the previous ones.

New page order and pages are also re-edited.  Again, I got bored with the previous ones.

• In case any of you aren’t familiar with the Spun theme, to view the widgets, just click on the plus sign at the bottom of the screen.

I Heart You,


I Heart This! · Two thousand and fifteen

‘I Heart This’ para Septiembre

Saturday, October 03
Westchester, NY
Alicia’s Bedroom

Hola, chicas!  So I’m back!!!  Super exciting, I know right?
Don’t worry, I’ll have an actual story/plot-line post up soon.  But for now, it’s time to share with you the things I found myself luh-ving during the past month!
So down below is my list of favourite items, shows, activities, etc from the month of September!
xoxo, Leesh


Things I Luh-ved Most In September:

Just For Fun – a newly released album by Timeflies


Slightly Ripped/Distressed Skinny Jeans

The Scorch Trials movie

Pumpkin Spice Lattes (they’re back!)


Winged Eyeliner

Autumn Weather

Fuzzy Socks

xoxo, Leesh

Two thousand and fifteen

Por Un Corto Tiempo

. . . For a Short While.

So just like Alicia, I – the author of this blog – am starting school again soon.  I already moved into my college dorm room at the end of last week, my suitemates moved in a few days after me, and then classes officially started on Monday morning.  I’ve only been here for a week and I’m already finding myself to be majorly stressed out.

Since I’m starting at a brand new college and not at the one I was at last year, I need to focus solely on school-related things for the first month that I’m here.  I am having to find my way around a new campus, get used to my new class schedule and professors, and join any extracurricular activities that I find myself interested in.  Plus, I have to have time to get to know, hang out, and bond with my suitemates along with making new friends.

For me, those aforementioned things are already proving to be huge challenges.  I’ve been emotional the past few days due to homesickness and missing my family, I’ve had essays to write already and tons of textbook reading to do.  If this week has already been extremely difficult for me, I honestly don’t know how the next couple of weeks are going to be.

Therefore, I will be taking a hiatus/break from this blog for a short while (hence the title).  But don’t fret, I’ll be back before you know it.  I plan to be posting again on this blog in October.  I just don’t want to be worrying about blogging and school during the first month of classes.  By October, I should be acclimated enough in my new college routine that I’ll be able to add my blogs back into it, too.

I hope you chicas understand! See you in October.

xoxo, Leesh